shattered dream.

how does it feel to be chasing a dream that doesn't seem to be realised?
it's like after so long...the thing I've been looking for, it's just...
I feel like I'm missing out.

why?

the ones that I'm serious about, I end up getting disappointed.
in the meantime, I reject those that seemed to be interested.
and now, regrets.

so many mistakes.
so many, many bad moves.
all the wrong choices.

I don't want to pity myself but sometimes, it's just pitiful looking back.





I wish I hadn't gone for...
and hurt you 2 years ago.
now the chance is gone and I've missed the boat.

regrets.

and I can't proceed with something I don't feel comfortable about.
I don't want to give you hope because I can't.
it'll really be better for you to move on, find someone for you.






what have I made of 2008?
another year of errors...
when will I learn?


I need fresh revelation.
a change of mindset.
a change of heart.

God, although I'm far away, please help me.