couch potato.

I've literally spent my WHOLE DAY sitting on my chair. and what have I achieved? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. =( what is this? I've spent every waking hour of today with my eyes glued to my laptop screen. it's no wonder that I seem to always be trying to spoil my eyes...sigh. and honestly, isn't there anything else better to do than sit here??? at least even if I want to sit down I could have read a book or something...rather than wasting HEAPS of time on Facebook doing absolutely useless things that don't mean anything, and just straining my eyes. SIGH indeed. you'd think a person like me with BRAINS would think of something more 'productive' to do...BUT, obviously not. sigh.

and can you believe it? this is my first post for 2008 and it's so depressing! =( bleah.

well...it's 7th of January already, it's a week into the new year. and this means it's counting down till I return to pursue my studies in NZ. 3 more weeks. =( you know...right at this moment, I don't wanna leave. I just don't want to go. before I came back to SG last year in Dec, I didn't want to come back...and now, I...don't want to go. I really can't bear to leave somehow. leave what? leave who? I don't know...I guess there's many reasons why I don't want to go, or maybe there doesn't have to be reasons at all. it's just how I feel. hmm...

2008 is supposed to be the best year yet...but it seems like it's off to a bumpy start...

what else can I say? cooped up in my room for the whole time it was daylight, now I have temper problems. the computer really helps to dissociate people from the real world. why do I put myself through this?!? ARGH. there WERE things to settle online...but it didn't have to take that long! =( sigh...

I couldn't even enjoy the dinner my grandma cooked tonight...=(

STOP. REWIND. PLAY.

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and so, the year 2008 has arrived. counted down with a few of my JC classmates...it's interesting how even though I was only there for a month and a bit, that I can still sort of relate somehow to them...well, I think generally it's hard for me to interact with people, so yeah...not much of a difference. yah. we watched the fireworks too, and that was quite an experience...

as for the rest of the new year, the past week was lined up with events. 1st Jan (Tues) was another stay-at-home-and-waste-time day, and 2nd Jan (Wed) wasn't that exciting either other than meeting up with Darice. caught up with Elim pple for lunch on Thursday, and at night had dinner with some of my Med friends. it's really interesting how you meet up with pple from NZ in SG. hmm. yes. and on Friday went with the Elim bunch to Sentosa...just a few of us Singaporeans with the 'tourists'. I felt more like a tourist than them actually...but it was fun. I'm glad I went along...

then on the 5th was the PL gathering at Joy's place, wasn't really a big gathering, but yeah, it was good seeing familiar faces once again. had to leave early though, cos was going for service at Expo, but the sermon was worth it, on focus and setting goals for 2008. yesterday went for service another time at Jurong, brought a friend along, and after that went to my maternal grandma's house. had a bit to eat, left with mum and sis, then family dinner to celebrate my paternal grandpa's birthday at Spring Court. it was a delicious meal. and finally, today, is just...I shall not go on about it.

it has been a good few days though, don't you think?

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hmm...

maybe it's because of you...haha. I don't think so. the paths that had once met are now starting to diverge...we'll each go our own ways...it was my choice, so I should stick to what I said. enough of dwelling in the past. it's a new year, let's have a fresh start...

I think I just need to get out of the house. staying at home doing nothing just makes me so frustrated. and so, can I smile now? I guess so. =) tomorrow will be a better day.