puzzle.

isn't life sometimes like a puzzle?
you're trying to figure out how to solve it...
or maybe it's like a maze?
winding around and around.
you take so many turns,
which all seem to lead to nowhere...

you feel so frustrated at times.
well, I do anyway.
it's easy to learn how to solve something like say, a Rubik's cube.
some may beg to differ,
but once you get the hang of it, it's easy.
I've solved it so many times already...

Rubik's cube

but you see, the thing is,
I've solved the cube,
but I still don't know how exactly it works.
mess it up this way or that and I can solve the cube.
but ask me how it works...
I don't know.

I got taught the first bits and sorta understood them.
then the last part,
I had to memorise some algorithms.
sometimes I just wish
there was an algorithm to life.
won't it just be so easy then?

but it becomes something like this scenario,
I've learnt how to solve the cube,
but I don't understand.
and if I was given the solution to living life,
then I'll be able to live life,
but not understand it, isn't it?

maybe.
do this, do that, then do this...
and TADA!
you've got what you wanted...
but is it the best for you?
was it worth working for...?

then again,
why worry about such HUGE things?
so many little things already bother me.
why worry???
I should just believe and trust huh.
easier said than done though...

hmm.

almost a week has gone by now...
my subconscious mind keeps going back.
the longing for something that I can't get,

I can't keep thinking about...you.
but it happens whenever my mind wanders,
which is often...

there's the shared interests,
the list of good points;
but you're far from perfect,

and maybe that's why...

BUT
I need to forget you,
and focus on other more "important" things.

cos sometimes,
it's not always best to get the things you want.
you'll see in time.

sunrise or sunset?