expectations.

below is a diagram on the expectations put on MG and me from my point of view.


we are SO FAR from what they expect of us.
I wonder why we're STRESSED.


who said Surgery was meant to be a "cruisey" run?!?


I got shot down last week.
MG got shot down today.
I wonder who's next.

"That was a crap presentation!"
"You failed me."
"You have to redeem yourselves."


why do you speak words over our lives that are so negative?
why can't you just be more encouraging and positive?


"It's not good enough."
"Are you sure you talked to the patient?"
"That's not good enough."


I can't generalise that all surgeons are like that, I know it's not true, but...

we try, you know, we TRY.
but we're just NOT up to YOUR standards.
and are we NOT supposed to take it personally?
tell me HOW not to?
we're just NOT good enough, are we?


can someone tell me HOW to live up to your team's expectations???

EDIT:
p.s. the anaesthetist must have also thought I was a really DUMB 4th year student for not knowing how to control the trolley bed!!! =S I didn't know I was supposed to both PULL AND STEER the bed! I thought she said "You pull, I'll steer" when in fact she was saying, "You pull AND steer"!!! my goodness...and just moments before that I didn't know I was supposed to PULL the bed and not just walk along steering it. nothing to say...