study break...?

hmm, basically I knew beforehand that if I came online, I wouldn't leave much time for study. but maybe I'll just take this as my break. got a bit more work done today than most other days, considering it's only 9 days away from my first paper. but yeah. met up with my lifegroup today, finally after not seeing them for a whole week almost. saw most of the Health Sci pple yesterday though, cos they had their first paper...hmm...

exams. a time when I try to focus on my studies but it always seems the easiest to get distracted. I cannot allow myself to go to ruins. need to concentrate. I did my very best today, and it did work. now I'm just left with trying to keep this up for the next 2 weeks...and then I'll finally be free for the year to allow my brain to think about thoughts other than studies. so many things happening, well, not happening, I'll just have to put them aside for now...or not.

I wonder where I stand. who am I to you? do I mean anything to you at all? to you whom I call a "friend", what level of friendship are we talking about? I guess all these times, it's always been superficial. I'm not one who easily opens up. not until quite recently.

it started with you. the easy-going friendship we shared, you listened. that was at the beginning. and right now, it's just...different. you're not...there anymore. maybe it's just our different agendas. maybe it just so happened I was your "friend" for a brief moment in time. maybe I should just stop thinking.

maybe. maybe. maybe.

no point using precious time now to think about you. but I just can't help it...

enough.

it will be a better day tomorrow.