waiting?

hmm...so much for the 'excitement' and anxiety to the buildup of this long awaited moment(really?)...personally I wouldn't consider that I had anything to look forward to anyway. and what was I going to say? I've passed my exams this year. that's it. that's it, you ask? haha...yah. no "how well did you do?" or "what marks did you score for each of the papers?". haha. it's the unconfirmed results but yeah, I managed to survive the first year of my course...=) am I happy, you ask? I guess so...but I'm happier for a certain other person. yet I'm at a loss of what to do for those who didn't do that well...jumble of feelings.

well. now that I'm here...

I wanna be part of your life...part of something I dream of.
but is it possible?
should I even be thinking about it?
or should I wait?

keep waiting...?

I'm still young, or so they say...but I'm old enough for something like this.

I can't...
I don't know.

am I confused...?

living out my life the way it is now.
am I ready? prepared? raring to go?

so many thoughts. so many, many thoughts. I know I'm worthy to the One above...but sometimes, I want more. more. more. isn't He enough, you ask? maybe. I'm losing touch. it's not good. focus. don't let the holidays distract you. time is what you have, make use of it wisely. am I giving myself a pep talk?

maybe.



keep waiting?