random fact: the thunder's growling...=D
right. it's been a while...nothing much exciting has been happening. in the area of going out and stuff, so far...I've only met like um...*sheepish smile*...enough friends to be able to count on my fingers (not counting those from cell group). ok, maybe it's my fault for not calling them up to arrange a meeting time...no excuses for that. hmm...I must say though, it's like after a few years of going away, I'm not as keen to meet up with people as when I first left. well...it's not like I was very close to many people here before I went off. we didn't stay in much contact even after I left anyway. I think I'm having some sort of JC class gathering this weekend...then there's another get-together with my sec sch friends sometime after Christmas. when you count those in...I think I would've met up with everyone I want to meet anyway. it's just that those are in group settings, different when you find people to go out in smaller groups. I don't really like going out...to be honest. ah well...
random fact: I can hear people laughing outside!?! =O
hmm...you know, this year, it's not been that easy. well, I guess situations have been put into my life for a reason. with each new year brings new challenges, without it, there's no fun and excitement in life! but every time I have to go through a rough patch, well, there comes the questions. the suffering that is endured, be it physical, mental or emotional can sometimes feel overwhelming. BUT up till now, I still haven't given up. hope for a better life, hope for a brighter future, hope for a blissful eternity. but for now, I have to make the most of the present. I thank Him for giving me opportunities to make a difference in the lives of people even in this short time that I'm back. I know what I can do is little, but with a little extra help from the HS and through prayer...
I believe miracles can happen.
I believe this Christmas will be different.
I believe I will have a breakthrough.
a friend of mine sent me this song, saying that maybe it will speak to me. at that point in time, I was like, hmm...how do you know??? well, I have to say this song is different. maybe I'm now in the spiritual wilderness...
The Space Between Us - Building 429
Look at my heart again
Look at the mess I've got it in
I'm trying to trust in You
To know that You'll see me through
Through my pride
Through my shame
Into Your love
Into Your grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see Your face
And I'm running straight to You
Because
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
To break this division
All I really want to do is to fall into
The emptiness that is
The space in-between us
Erase it and bring us together again
My life's like an open book
Nothing is hidden when You look
You break through my boundaries
Revealing my insecurities
But through my pride
And through my shame
You show me love
You show me grace
I'm not looking back
Till I see Your face
And I'm running straight to You
Because
Here I am saying I need You
I know I need You
Here I am, I'm coming to meet You
Cause I want to see You
hmm...on another note, some people, I feel like I run out of things to say to. maybe because once I get close, I...hmm.
I'm more comfortable sitting by your side...in silence, not feeling awkward, but just beside you. when you feel like talking, I smile and listen. and when I start to share, you listen intently. that's all I'm asking for. because sometimes, there's no need for words...
I didn't manage to do what I wanted to get done yesterday. but yesterday is yesterday. I should get some rest, need to wake up in a while's time to accomplish what I didn't finish...tomorrow is a new day...
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