new beginning.

here's just a little photo. something from yesterday. thanks to the guy who helped us to take this. he happened to be standing there and then suddenly approached by BK. haha.

our little meeting at Marina Square. Brother Kenneth, Zhen Le, Sing Yee, me.

(BK looks like a little kid. hehe. sorry BK! =D)

well well, pple are bugging me for photos. haha. I was supposed to upload all my endless supply of photos onto the W115 photo gallery website...and BK 'kindly' reminded me just now. haha. oops. I will do it soon. now have more important things to do...

anyway, as usual I wasted my day doing nothing, spending my time awake online. hmm...what BK said just now struck me though. he said something like, although there's 365 days a year, God doesn't count all the days. He only counts which days that you've been productive, and if you waste your day doing nothing, the day isn't counted in God's eyes. wow. I was like...huh, this is saying me exactly. and I've wasted my whole week already. ok, so maybe it's just 3 days of the new year, but still...that's not a very good way to start 2006. so, I shall set myself this resolution:

From today onwards, I'm not going to waste my time like I've been doing. I've done all I need to update my blog already - the overall design, the additional effects, the music playing in the background, etc - so now I can focus on getting the job I've been given done well. I want myself to be responsible for the tasks set before me, and not procrastinate and push it off to a later time to complete. Serving God by helping in the cell group is more important than spending time on the Internet doing 'useless' things. I don't want to waste 2006 away.

yup, that sounds good. hmm...and I realised that different pple blog for different reasons. I visited a few of my friends' blogs/online journals/diaries, and they post various things. some write about spiritual stuff, and when I read them, I'm amazed at what they went through. and they managed to pull through stronger than ever. WOW. praise the Lord for never leaving nor forsaking them in their times of need, and helping them through it all. others talk about their daily life, like me. but I think I should have a variety. pple want to see the different sides of your life, isn't that what blogs are for?

hmm...I really like my blog now. the song playing in the background is Love of God by MercyMe. the whole 'love' theme is appealing...well, to me it is anyway. but it's not the worldly love that I'm talking about. "Loving HIM Forever" is not what the world would think it is. there's a God above whose love knows no bounds, and who loves unconditionally. no one else in the entire universe can love like He does. humans can only love to that certain extent, they all expect something in return. but God loves with no strings attached, and why I want to serve Him is not becos I am 'forced' to, but becos I love Him so much I want to do things which please Him. isn't that what even normal pple do? if we love a person we won't want to intentionally hurt them, do we? I don't. and I'm sorry if I ever did hurt anyone, please forgive me.

Christianity is NOT about religion, it's about a real and life-changing relationship with an awesome God.

you know what, pple can say all they like, about not being interested in religion or eternal life. but I can only say that you won't know what you're missing out until you get to experience it for yourself. to believe it or not is your own free will. you might have lots of doubts, but eventually if pple can testify to God's goodness and greatness, then why should you question God? haha. and on to the question if there is a God in the first place? I got this off Josephine's blog:

I RATHER LIVE A LIFE THINKING THERE WAS A GOD AND FOUND OUT THERE WASN'T THAN LIVE A LIFE THINKING THERE WAS NO GOD AND FOUND OUT THERE WAS.

makes you think, doesn't it? I'm contented with believing. call me shallow, or call me easily influenced by things I read and hear...I don't care. I'm not dumb. God has been so real to me. yes, there have been times I've drawn away from Him, but when I get back into His presence, I can feel that I'm a different person, changed from inside out. gradually moulded and shaped into who He wants me to be. all the politics behind Christianity, I admit I am ignorant, but like I said before, I don't want all that, I just want my Daddy God. my ever-loving, never-changing Father in Heaven. all I want is You, Lord.

Thank You for always being with me even though I do things at times which hurt You. I'm so sorry, and I thank You for forgiving and forgetting, and giving me a brand new beginning, not a second chance, but You've wiped my slate clean with the blood of Jesus. I cannot think of a better way to repay you but to serve you all my life. Thank You so much God.

I want this year to be different from 2005. yes, last year was a great year, I managed to do well and pass my exams to get into Medicine, but there were down times too. not once, but a few times that have etched memories in my mind. God, help me to forgive those who've hurt me. let me love them again with the love You show me. and I pray that You'll show them Your love as well. thank You Lord.

"remembering doesn't hurt, you're forgiven...I hope you forgive me too."