today...

was one of those days that any little thing set me off.

person A just made me so annoyed. every single thing I said, that person had a remark which mocked me. maybe it was the tone or the very superior attitude that they had, I don't know. but that person made me so angry.

person B kept butting in on conversations not meant to include that person. okay maybe I am quite an exclusive person, but I was not happy to have that person giving their comments. and I personally do not really enjoy the company of that person.

person C frustrated me just because of the way the person was. guess it's both our strong personalities that clash. but it just ticked me off.

fought so hard today not to lose my cool.
had to walk away or I would have snapped.
bitten their heads off.

so much for being Christ-like...

and disappointed with my personal relationships too. sigh.

person X was someone who I wanted to be close to once, but missed my chance. so now it's gone and though I try to ask about their day, the conversations just seem...forced. and very superficial. very fake. that person has moved on long ago, and I have to go my own way too.

person Y...I thought we shared something in common, and we did get along for a while. but things got complicated and relations got a little strained, but we managed to sort stuff out, or so I thought. guess I thought wrong. seems like I'm trying to reach out to salvage the friendship but there's nothing left to hold on to.

everything sounds depressing...

and I have huge eyebags.
look hideous.
sigh.

blame the hormones.

today is now over.
hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.