enough is enough.

stop asking. just stop it. there's no need to keep probing into things that belong in the grey area. I don't want to have to keep explaining things. I shan't say more, there's no need to. just leave me alone...

I don't know, it's kinda depressing, these holidays. especially if I can't get what I want. yeah sure, I can put on a happy front, but deep down inside, is that really me? I guess most of the time I'm truly happy, I tend to take on the emotion of my surroundings. and whilst I'm with most of my friends, I am happy. happiness is so relative. and I'm so glad to have flatmates that I can talk to. at least they make my life more 'bearable'. it's not like I'm suffering or anything physically. I'm fine. yet some emotional needs have yet to be satisfied. I just don't want to throw myself into something I'm not prepared for...

ah well. I'm looking forward to the trip to Wellington. away from this place for a while. hmm...those of you who're reading my blog, don't ask me about anything, especially the random stuff I write. like I said before, know me in person before you judge me by what I write in here. yeah, you can be curious, but it's not good to be nosy. (or nosey? same thing.) I have my ups and downs I guess, just like everyone else. just look around, scout the blogs, people express different things in different ways. hmm. I'm just gonna forget about the sad stuff. no point. I will be positive and inject positivity into others' lives. I want to be strong for others...

I cut my thumb on the side of a can last night. argh. it's so disabling, having a plaster on one of the most important parts of your hand. and because it's such a clean cut it bleeds easily. oh well. that's what you get from being careless. hmm. ok, enough of randomness. I need to get back to work soon. haven't done any the past one and a half weeks. hols are ending soon.

off to the gym for now. I'm late already. and tmr too. free txting's back. ok, random, random, random. I miss my sis. and I can't upload photos today. argh.