day late.

A Day Late - Anberlin

So let me get this straight
You say now you've loved me all along
What made you hesitate
to tell me with words what you really feel?
I can see it in your eyes
You mean all of what you say
I remember so long ago, see I felt that same way
Now we both have separate lives and lovers
Insignificantly enough
we both have significant others
Only time will tell
Time will turn and tell

We are who we were when
Could have been lovers
but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when
Who knew what we knew now
Could have been more
but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when

But thoughts they change
and times they rearrange
I don't know who you are anymore
Loves come and go now and this I know
I'm not who you recall anymore
But I must confess
you're so much more than I remember
Can't help but entertain
these thoughts of us together

So let me get this straight
All these years
and you were nowhere to be found
And now you want me for your own
But you're a day late
and my love, she's still renowned

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guess after all this time it IS different now.

maybe it's time to stop "craving" the past.
I WANT. but guess I'm NOT going to GET.

what you saw in me then, probably isn't what you see now.
or maybe it's just that you have different priorities.
more important things to go after in life.

one life, that's all you and I have got.
I just wish for more of you in mine.
HAHA wishful thinking indeed.
tis not meant to be huh.



guess one reason why I don't feel like going back is due to the fact that I don't feel like I've made REAL connections last year. moving cities is a big thing, and after all I WAS further south for 4 years before that and with Elim homegroup/International Network for 2 and a half years. how can I compare?

deep down though, I feel kinda "rootless". don't know where to plant, how to keep it rooted...feel kinda lost...hmm.

anyway.



I suppose what was "cute" and maybe brought excitement then is probably annoying now. haha.



ANYWAY.

last Children's Church celebration service today. well before I leave. still at the same position serving BUT have yet to be good at it. made mistakes, wasn't sharp, but I tried. maybe I was distracted. ah. anyway. it was an experience. I'm just a bit...numb now. sigh.

but the phone still stays silent...