breakthrough.

I so need one right now. it's like I've come so far...and at this point in time I'm stuck. I don't like where I am. I'm not going anywhere, not doing anything. cos I don't know what to do! everything has become monotonous. meaningless.

what happened to my passion? where is it? I can't seem to find it anywhere...

it hasn't been a good week. serving has become something I'm not enjoying.

am I overworking myself? seems like I'm everywhere, trying to do so many things. it's almost 2 weeks left now...the most crucial time, yet this!

why?

I'm suddenly so tired. maybe it's the effect of too little sleep, and too much work. I'm starting to lag behind in my schoolwork. and it's only the 3rd day back at classes. I have to study for my RDA test, complete my ECC essay, prepare for my dissecting labs, film an interview, etc. it's just hectic. some of it, I admit, it's my fault, cos it's last min. but others, it's just...overwhelming...right now.

though I make it for my 8am starts everyday, all I do is just fall asleep in practically all my lectures. so why do I go in the first place???

and one more thing. I've been neglecting my friends. self-centered me is just caught up in my own little world. what happened to "share the message of God's love" by loving others? gone.

sorry.



God I need help!