scrambled thoughts.

since when did I become a material girl in a material world? always thought I was supposed to be in the world but not of the world. seems like things have started to change somehow...

what about prophecies? they are things God tells people to say to others. are they meant to come true? they are, aren't they? if God has revealed it to a leader to pass it on to a member, then it's foretelling of the future right? but not all the time they will come true, isn't it? especially if you walk your own way and not walk the path according to His plans for you. then the prophecies won't be fulfilled, no?

don't they always say that "it's the thought that counts"? sometimes things don't go the way you want it to, but then you did try. other times you wanted something to happen but didn't really put that much effort into it, does that count too? but how can you expect something but not do anything about it?

if I really am looking for that significant other, what am I actually doing to improve myself for that person? how can I say that I have criteria for that other person but not think that he would be looking for someone who fits his criteria too? how can it be one-sided? doesn't make sense right?

just wanna scream and shout at the top of my lungs...