keep on running.

yah...it’s so near the exams already. I’m not actually in the mood to blog anymore. just feel as though it’s taking up too much time. esp when I usually have so many things to talk about. I think this might be the last time I update before I sit for my exams, well for my first paper at least. it’s on FRIDAY! oh my goodness...5 days and counting down SO quickly. I really am committing these finals into God’s hands...in my own strength I’m not going to make it. it’s as though I might as well not go and sit for the exams at all. I need to make the best use of whatever time I have left, catch up with ALL my revision. use my brain cells...really praying that my memory will be expanded, and all the things I read can be photographically taken down in my mind. and also that I will be directed towards things that I need to know about for the exams...help me God, please, I ask of you...

hmm...it’s a bit different, the way I’m writing this post, isn’t it? I feel it is anyway. more God-oriented. that’s what my life’s supposed to be like anyway. now that I need Him, then I come to Him. what a procrastinator. when my life’s going good, I start walking away, only when I become desperate then I walk back. I run back in fact. guess He has to put up with me...I guess there’s others out there too. I think it’s just in the human nature to do this. just can’t help it. ok, maybe if you have the will, you’ll have a way out of it, but I have yet to learn that. hmm...

I just did something I don’t normally do. I sent a text wishing all the best for BIOL115 on Friday. and this time around, I didn’t just send it to just my Christian friends, though it contained the likes of “God bless” and prayer. I sent it to almost everyone in my phonebook taking the paper. and guess what? I think pple aren’t too offended by it. I honestly don’t know how many non-Christians I sent it to, I feel that pple do appreciate that someone will randomly send something like this. I say random is becos I don’t usually text pple much. I almost don’t text those pple at all. but yup, I just did. hmm...being a Christian isn’t something to be ashamed of...and it’s not something I have to hide too. I need to step out of my comfort zone...and help save the lost. it’s not enough to just live a good life, I must impact pple. the time is running out...even in the midst of studying for exams, I want to show pple I care. hmm...even as I take this step up, I just hope I’ll be able to sustain my vision not just for short-term...

this is a totally different entry from the previous ones. now that I’m anxiously studying for exams, it has kind of made me change my focus...like what has always been said, if you keep your focus on God, everything else will fall into place. so often I forget that. more often than not in fact. hmm...I will keep my eyes fixed on Jesus, the author and perfector of my faith...and keep running the race...

“if you want to judge me right now, go ahead...it doesn’t matter anymore.”