once more.

hmm...actually had a photo to put up with this post, but then there seems to be something wrong with my Internet connection at home. it’s getting quite frustrating, not knowing what’s wrong with my laptop. argh. it’s getting slower and slower, and previously, every time I tried going on MSN, it restarted itself! *yell...* but now at least it still works fine. however once I disconnect from the Internet, everything goes haywire again. dot dot dot...I have nothing to say. the screen just freezes and I have to force-shut it down. why?!? I think it’s about time I got myself a new laptop anyway, it’s going to be 2yrs old soon. I need an upgrade...

ah well...another day of classes. official lectures covering examinable material will be finishing this week, it’ll all be revision next week. did a tiny bit of studying in school today, kind of finished 3 and a 1/2-ish lectures of Anatomy. now I’m on to muscles! wow, exciting! a quarter left from that section and 2 more BIG modules to go! haha...ok, I shouldn’t be sarcastic, it isn’t working. oh well. hmm...also managed to copy the notes from the Week 10 Biochem overheads on Close Reserve in the Sci lib. ended up photocopying the overheads for mitochondrial evolution (why in the world do we need to learn about that in the first place?!? I don’t understand!) cos I just couldn’t be bothered to copy it out by hand. yah. took that full 2hrs to go through the remaining 3 lects though, was kind of nodding off halfway again. hehe...and I took a short nap after that. so sleepy...must be not enough sleep. haiyah...I sleep a lot already. what am I supposed to do now? hmm...

things are taking a turn for the worse. well, the weather is anyway. it was cold and wet this afternoon, such a big change from yesterday. started off really cloudy this morning, such a bleary start made me want to just crawl back into bed and go to sleep. but...I didn’t, so yah. didn’t realise that it started raining until I went out for a break halfway through studying and I was surprised! haha. ok, I’m really unaware of my surroundings when I concentrate on doing something...so this is a good sign! =) hmm...the weather’s not going to get better though, the forecast is for snow again! so weird!!! what to do...it’s Dunedin! and I’m happy to be here...well, happier anyway...

hmm...just something aside. it’s just a thought going through my mind so don’t judge me by what I say. hmm...I feel that sometimes I’m sort of a failure. yah, I know I have my studies to be ‘proud’ of, I’m doing exceptionally well right now. even I have to say so myself. put me back into the S’pore education system and I’ll be struggling badly. it’s not everyone that can have a chance to study overseas...but so what if I’m doing well? the things that I want most, I can’t have them. needs are different from wants. and the things I should do (other than studying), I’m not doing. so many things...I’m not going to name any here, but I just feel there’s more to life than just studies. definitely. but it seems as though my life revolves around my studies...and I’ve failed in so many other aspects that matter more. I’m putting everything on hold that shouldn’t be put on hold...hmm...never mind. I’ll try to work things out...

anyway, didn’t want to end this entry on a down side, but I kind of did. sorry pple who’re reading this. think it must be too much studying taking a toll on me already...

“knowing about something is different from doing something about it...”