it's bittersweet.

I was supposed to sleep early today. hmm...and I didn’t blog yesterday. extremely tired when I got home at 1am, then this morning still had to wake up at around 8am to prepare to go to church. ironically, I think this morning was one of the very few days I actually felt awake when I woke up. odd. but obviously my brain is lacking sleep, cos it’s still can’t process things really quickly, and also, I kept bumping into stuff, or just generally being clumsy. and my grammar is quite bad now. plus the words I type aren’t coming out right, I have to use the backspace button so many times even while just typing this paragraph. get what I’m trying to say here?

hmm...G12 last night. I have too many things to say I guess. it was my first time leading this lifegroup. I felt quite comfortable doing it, like it wasn’t that bad. we were supposed to have a combined worship then split into girls’ and guys’ discussion group, but there were only 10 of us, much reduced size from last week’s. Alice and Ming weren’t here, and I realised that it’s different without our leaders. it’s more...let’s just say...it’s more relaxed. more riotous? (oh cool, there’s such a word! and there are synonyms for it too! haha...I’m using Blogger for Word...) yah. but Aaron told me afterwards that I led G12 quite well. and I was somehow humbled by his comment. hmm...I think I’m having revelations about myself recently, through many incidents...pple tell me things, and...well, I find out what pple think about me, their impressions of me. and also the way I think about certain things. hmm...there’s a lot to think about in that...

oh, and Biochem’s finally over! any Health Sci pple reading this, or whoever’s taking BIOC111, don’t strangle me or anything k...cos I found the paper relatively ok, it was tricky, but it wasn’t as difficult as I’d expected. ok, I know I didn’t expect anything in the first place, but yah. it went quite well, and I was super high after the paper, due to lack of sleep as well. *yawn*...still haven’t replenished my energy supply...but yah. I have one very important thing to say though, is that I couldn’t have done this with my own effort. even if I’d worked hard and tried my best, I wouldn’t have been able to do this without God. and I want to give Him the praise and thanks He deserves. Thank you so much Lord for helping me in my time of need... words just can’t describe how much He’s helped me. I struggled and fell many times, but He was and is always there to pull me back up to my feet. hmm...

alrighty, I shouldn’t actually talk so much here. back to being able to use the com without guilt tmr! but I have to study. study, study, study...go online to do my assignments that I’ve neglected for 1 whole week. I’m not usually that kind of person, and I feel quite disturbed that I’m actually leaving things till near the deadline to do. *shudder*...I did copy out some Physics questions off my assignment, but I haven’t done it. and I didn’t even touch the RMA SDL. oh man...I know it doesn’t take that long to do it, but I feel so much better when I do it at the beginning, and not worry about what else I still have to do. so tmr, I’ll work on those...plus exams are in exactly 40 days from today. and in 40+10 days I’ll be outta here....

ok, think I’ve just about typed out a whole essay. it’s taken up the whole page! hmm...scooting off to bed now.

“I’m starting to leave all the memories behind...”