I'm exhausted.

I really am. this has been such a hectic week. so many things have happened. and I remember posting an entry on the Biochem discussion board "Just for Chat" forum on Monday. ironically enough, the thread was entitled: "this shall be a stress free week". how true. my foot. I'm just being sarcastic, do ignore me. hmm...things aren't going the way I'm wanting them to go recently. guess it's just my ignorance...

I am so glad of the break for this coming week. real glad. need to relax from going to lectures. need to catch up first. but in saying that, I know that in the end I'll only be able to catch up on a bit, not all of it. hmm...tmr going to town, see the optometrist. my eyesight is deteriorating...crap. oh well. then going to study. STUDY. got Biochem Terms Test in like 2 weeks. less than that. so fast. only MCQ. so what? it's not easy. especially when there's 32 lectures being tested. wow...I don't know how I'm going to manage to cram 8 weeks' worth of material in 1 week plus. I'll have to really try so hard.

yesterday was such a long day. I'm going to have an early night tonight. hmm...the novelty of free txting is wearing off. since last week. only free txting what. prob won't stay up tonight to wait for goodnight messages, if I even get any...

right now my eyes are semi-closing already. it's been like that since this morning. first aid training finished today. so kind of officially, I'm a qualified first aider. cool. =) but I haven't gotten my certificate yet. so I can't say that. BUT I've been trained, and should be able to act in an emergency. it's really interesting what you get to learn. about stuff that might really save someone's life one day. hopefully it won't come to that (unless say I DO get into Med, then THAT's a different story) cos the worst can happen. hmm...but it's good to know things. 'ignorance is bliss' doesn't apply in this case. yah.

we had homegroup last night! fun. real fun. fantastic food. great company. it's no wonder it keeps me going back for more. as of today, I've known homegroup for 3 months! read Ad's blog, he remembers when I first came. I think I said that before, that's why. but homegroup's cool. Rach came along too. think she blends in with all of us quite well. I can see the way I act in her. and it's really interesting cos I think I behaved like that even though I didn't know the pple very well. not in a bad way, but close when you're not close. huh? nevermind...I'm confusing myself. in all, it's just where I feel comfortable to be my crazy self.

I laughed. A LOT. kneeling again. it's good to laugh. laughter is good medicine. I can't agree more. I forget about my troubles. I go crazy. pple either laugh along, or look at me as though I'm crazy. but I am, so who cares? I want to be known as a happy person. some pple get to see my serious side. but I wanna smile. so that I don't look so fierce. or bored. or sad. or whatever it is I look like when I don't smile.

I talk to pple about useless stuff. I don't know them very well, but I just talk. feel more familiar with others. talk. I used to be very shy. you don't know that? well, I'm different now. I'm glad I am. still a bit on the hesitant side sometimes, esp in front of a crowd or on stage or something. I still won't go up to pple and talk. but if there're just there, sitting next to me, I might start up a conversation if they look as though they want to talk to me. some pple don't. I don't think I'm that approachable. it's the look on my face. it doesn't naturally smile. oh well. stop complaining. at least I still have a reason to smile for. I'M ALIVE AND WELL. situations change, but I can still smile. and you, you know who you are, you make me smile always. like I said, situations change. we're not happy, but I can still smile. hmm...

guess I'm going to pop into bed soon. *yawn*. so cold these 2 days. high of 8 degrees? cold. and it's the end of winter. springtime is colder than wintertime. is that cool or what? but no snow. hmm...wearing my thick winter jacket. nice and warm and cuddly. but a lot of static when I take it off. so many shocks. must remember to uncharge myself every time I take it off. yup.
alright. that'll do. pple in 'sunny' Dunny, take care and keep warm!

"am I doing the right thing? um...I don't know..."