mixed feelings.

heard this on the radio: "If I am at peace with myself, I have had a successful life." they were talking about the guy who got killed on the Auckland motorway a few days ago. they managed to catch the 14-yr-old guy who did it, but the damage's already been done. and now 2 lives are ruined becos of this incident. Chris was only 20 yrs old...what else can I say? I really don't know...it's like, death can strike anytime, you really wouldn't know when will be your last day on earth. I don't want to die so early, and I don't think many of us will be thinking about death, although inevitable, yet it seems still quite far away. that is based on the assumption that you're not facing any life-threatening illness at the moment. hmm...makes you think doesn't it? what if today was your last day on earth??? what have you done today that you'll be glad you did it, or what have you not done that you'll regret once it's too late? I have so many things to tell pple...that I love my family and friends, that I appreciate what pple have done for me, be it big or small. and so many other things. it really makes you think...

hmm...just watched Grey's Anatomy. it's a good show...rated "Adults Only" I think, but I mean, all the adult themes...I'm old enough to understand. that these are just shows, maybe portrayals of real life, but I just watch, I don't follow. hmm...there was a glitch in today's programme. they showed all the different sections one after another without ad breaks. so weird! you don't have to anticipate what's going to happen in the scene, as they always have an ad breal at the exciting part, you know it straight away. a bit waste my time watching, cos part of watching a TV show is the thrill of waiting to see what happens next although we like complaining at the ads! hmm...funny how pple are isn't it...

today I had a really, really good time with my girl-friends. that's something that I would have been glad I did if this was my last day. went for the early 9am Bio lecture...and Rach finally came! she was even earlier than me. hmm...we were talking to Ben and Jess at the end, discussing as you'd have thought, S'pore stuff! hehex. really interesting...cos we can laugh at each others' comments...=) I still can't wait for Friday to come! hope there'll be quite a lot of pple there. yah. it was drizzling, and me and Rach walked to Unipol. yeah...again. but today was so different as compared to yesterday. hmm...we worked out ALOT yesterday. did steps for 15mins, cycled another 15 then did 2.4km run! hehex. took ages to finish it! but I had a good time. then we walked back to St David's cos I haven't had my Biochem lecture and we were talking to Chwee Ling. had a good chat. yup. then today, Belinda came along to Unipol. but ended up not working out at all. there were SO many pple! I didn't know so many pple frequented the gym...really, non-stop flow of pple, quite a lot of ladies, using the cardio facilities. wow. in the late morning. oh well...bad time to go there. we ended up playing basketball for more than 30mins, but I got bored, so we changed to badminton. hmm...I think I should bring my badminton stuff here next year. esp shuttlecocks. the plastic ones are just...I have no comments. but I'll be quite busy next year leh...where got time to play...? uh. nevermind.

what was memorable today was after the gym part. I have to admit I walked around campus in my shorts! and this time not the bermudas, but running shorts, not the extremely short ones though, cos I don't have such nice legs to show off. hehex. changed soon though, cos it was cold! and I felt so self-conscious. oh well. then the 3 of us were upstairs at St David's from around...12-something 1pm until 4-something 5pm. 4 hours of not doing work, how great can that feel? ok, maybe Belinda was doing work, but obviously Rach and I weren't. but we had such a great time laughing away. talking about lame stuff. just chilling out, in the middle of the week. and I realised, sometimes my focus here isn't about studying, but about building friendships. not that I have many friends, but working on those that mean something to me. to be able to just be myself, no pretenses, no fronts. hmm...studying is one thing, but life's not just about my studies. contradictory as it might seem, I don't want to be a nerd. I have a life, though I say I don't. we all do. we live, eat, breathe. yes, we study, it's just a part of our life. hmm...

ok, that's it from me. I won't have things to talk about tmr already. hmm...

"and it's time to face the truth, that I'll never be with you..." - You're Beautiful