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hmm...I realise that the Internet is a dangerous place. not so much dangerous I guess, but more of...um, I don't know what's a good word to use. you know, the homegroup website links to this blog! I knew that Ming knew my blog address, but I didn't know it was on the homegroup website. it's not that I don't want it to be there, but I thought by having a blogspot blog would mean I'll have more privacy than on Friendster. but it doesn't make a difference I guess. thing is, if I really want a private blog, what's the point of having a blog? makes no sense right? a blog's meant to be for pple to read, so why am I complaining? maybe it's becos I don't talk much about spiritual things...I am quite a spiritual person, but I'm not used to talking about it, not here, not to pple. I don't want pple to think that I'm this oh-so-religious person, sometimes it turns pple off. honestly, Christianity means quite a lot to me, it's not a religion, but a real and serious relationship with God. it's hard sometimes to tell pple about Christianity...but it's what we have to do. I realise though, that I say quite a lot of things but I don't take much action. faith without action is worthless! I should make it my priority after God and my studies. hmm...

oh, I had a good time on Fri night and Sat. like I said before, Krystal's party was a success, which was good considering what the organisers had to do to prepare for the party. thank you everyone who helped out! as for the photos I took, especially of the results of the "cream-fight", I'll try to get them up on the homegroup website soon. hehe. it was fortunate that I decided not to join in the fight, and doubly fortunate that I'm not celebrating my birthday here, nor my half-birthday...not this year anyway. =D but I'll be 18! whee~ finally of the legal age. not that it matters in the first place...yah. and then we had a girls G12 in the afternoon yesterday, and only Cynthia and me brought friends. Belinda and Rachel came along, and I think they found yesterday quite alright. I'm so glad Rach came though, it's like we've been friends for almost 2 years now, we're close in the sense that we hang out together quite often, but we don't know much about each other. I think it's been that way for many of my friends...I know a lot of what my sister calls "hi-and-bye friends", but I cannot say I have many of close friends. it's not everyone else, it's me. but I'm slowly coming out of my shell, this wall that I've built around myself. guess coming to NZ was good after all...

speaking of which, I'm going to re-interate that I've been on national TV! haha...like I called home this afternoon, then my sister told me that she really saw me on TV, on the news some more! =) which means that quite a lot of pple saw me. well, maybe not me, since it was only a short sequence that they played, but greetings from S'poreans from Otago Uni! (not so much S'poreans though...tell you a secret, we didn't have enough pple so we got in some extras. hehe...so it's not a secret anymore...oh well.) but I don't think many pple know I'm in NZ...they'll prob not pay attention, thinking it's just another group of strangers in another country. I'm on a national website too! haha. I don't look that good though...so don't bother going to see.

hmm...I just realised, I actually miss my family. all along I've been thinking, "oh, it's just so great to be able to get away from S'pore and be all on my own, alone and with no cares." but recently, I can't wait to call back home. I'm not homesick, I like it here. but I guess distance just makes things seem dearer. I believe what they say about only when things are gone then will you realise you miss it that much...it applies to so many things. family that I've 'left behind', even if only temporary, friends that I've 'left behind' too...and even those that I got to know last year who aren't here this year. hmm...guess that's the way life is. which emphasises what I've learnt this week from reading "The Purpose Driven Life", that life on this earth is temporary, what we're doing now is preparing ourselves for eternal life with God. we are all in built with the desire for immortality and a greater being, I think that's why there are so many religions. I still want to stress though, that Christianity is not a religion. yah. talking about this I can go into different things, but I don't want to argue with anyone. believe it or not, it's up to you. I'm not perfect, I make mistakes, don't judge Christianity by what I do.

ok, it's rather late already. I realised that I don't spend my weekend time wisely anymore. it's more for me to relax and have a rest, than to study. so I should study hard during the week, so that I deserve to have a break during the weekends...

"don't think about anything.just focus on what you have to do..."