one of those days.

today was another day where I dreaded coming home.
HATED the thought of it.
coming home to an empty flat because it was still early.
somehow that idea just wasn't attractive.
prolonged my time in Hillmorton.
then headed over to school, wanting to catch the others.

BUT.

everyone's busy.
that just made me angry.
upset that my offer to watch a movie was rejected.
even though all the rest have good reasons.
AND it was such a last minute plan anyway.

cycled to pak n save.
bought and ate food to try to make myself feel better.
didn't really work.
came home.
then heard something that set me off again.

STUPID.

can't control my emotions.
hate this labile affect.

leave me alone.