pushed away.

now that I'm doing psych, I think I'm more aware of my dysthymic mood.
but my insight usually returns only after I'm out of it.

every time I do something like that though, there are consequences.
because relationships/friendships can only take that much.

I know that.

I shall blame it on the hormones this time.

"It is likely that the blues is precipitated by the rapid drop in serum oestrogen levels which occurs postpartum. The dopamine and the serotonin system, both of which are implicated in mood disorders, are extremely sensitive by modulation by oestrogen. The underlying aetiology of postpartum depression and postpartum psychosis are likely to be the same as that of recurrent unipolar depression and bipolar affective disorder respectively."